The amassing responsibilities on my plate are becoming more daunting. Esp considering that I’ve not given myself too much room to recover from my burnout. All of it is actually really exciting but bc of burnout, I’m seeing most of it as a chore. I get angry with myself for this.
It’s impt I acknowledge I’m shouldering the weight of all that I’m balancing during a pandemic, increased social pressures as a Black woman during an important time in history for the fight for Black lives, with an (unfair) expectation placed on me to suck it up and work.
In essence this is hard and for that, I need to practice compassion to myself for not being all the way there. My memory has gotten even worse due to stress and beating myself up for understandable feelings only amplified stress. Next is reprioritization. Somethings got to give.
I can’t pour from an empty cup! We hear that all the time, but I’ve taken time to decide what my values are and what does and doesn’t need my immediate attention. I’ve also learned what I need to delegate and what requires me to request help. Doing this has lifted burdens for me and even created opportunities for others.
This entire process is iterative. I’m learning that it’s necessary that I recalibrate myself every so often so I’m not working harder than I’m working smart. Especially when certain stresses and struggles can be avoided. I’m building this muscle. I hope sharing this helps someone